I am a man.
I just realized this. I mean, my name even has the word 'Man' in it.
Not that I don't need improvement- There are things I like about myself, and there are things I don't.
I like...
That I'm a nerd.
My regularly tangental and hard to follow thought processes.
My fascination with worlds that don't exist.
That I have friends who can tell it to me straight.
That I have friends who will stick with me no matter what.
My calves. (I know that's kinda weird, but they're really awesome.)
That I'm weird. ^see above.
That if I can get over my self-consciousness, I can really enjoy myself.
I don't like...
How self-conscious I am.
My complete inability to focus on any one thing for more than about 15 minutes at a time.
That I'm a pretty messy person. Very disorganized.
How I manage to offend people even when I'm specifically trying not to.
How I can't play any RPG as the 'bad' guy. I just can't do it.
That I don't already own a firearm.
On another note, I did the Army 10-Miler saturday(Friday night for all of you), and I did a pretty good job. It's a nice feather to have in my hat.
One thing that's driving me nuts right now(It kinda always has, but more specifically now) Is that I've still never been in a 'guy/girl' relationship. I mean, I figured I would have at least dated someone by now. I see a lot of other people, people I did most of my growing up with, pairing up and getting ready to tie the knot-or having done it already. (Yes Trev, you're pressuring me, whether you like it or not.) Brandon's engaged, he's just waiting on me to get home so I can be the best man. Chris even managed to find somebody. (Scary thought, I know.) Not that I don't have people I'm interested in, it's just that geographically, it would be irresponsible to pursue them right now. So I'm kinda going nuts. I probably didn't do a good job of explaining how I feel, but when do I ever?
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The thing about your calves...so weird you mentioned that because the only time I've heard my mom comment on something sexy about my dad's appearance was that she liked his calves. So yes, hopefully you find someone who thinks nice man-calves are sexy.
ReplyDeleteAs for army-dating, my sister and her husband met before they went into the army, got married, and now share similar experiences but from a distance as he is in Iraq. And even though they have those few factors going in their favor and shared experiences, I think it's still a strain. My sister's always been extremely independent though, which is why it works. It's not that you can't date now, you just need to find the right person who can handle the current situation.
You're a silly billy. You worry too much. You're doing fine, Kapp. There's somebody out there for you. Let it come to you.
ReplyDeleteStop saying silly billy.
ReplyDeleteI think it's really strange that so many of the friends that I grew up with are either dating or getting married. I will be attending at least half a dozen weddings this year. Two of which are in the next 3 weeks. It's so weird, but I know that God is in control and His timing is the best timing. Hang in there! :P
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